It’s been a hard year. As I get older things are seemingly more difficult. I’m trying to keep my head up, but after what happened yesterday I couldn’t sleep. I felt pretty rejected without much of an opportunity to prove what I’m capable of. Who retracts a job offer in email, anyway? I’m 26, I didn’t realize adults did that sort of thing?
So I’m here… writing about my life because I can’t find my journal since everything is packed up. Here is where I’m going to pack up the beginning of my year, seal it it up, and keep it that way.
It’s not my fault; I’ve been blaming myself, which isn’t helpful. I’ve created a correlation between events this year and things that I have done in my life that could have lead to this. That isn’t how it works and I’m not a bad person. This year has just been one blow after another.. Lost my grandfather, who was the closest thing I had to a father. I have been working my ass off to get into the Physical Therapy Assisting Program for the past year… didn’t get in. My best friend loses her brother unexpectedly and I struggled with being there for her because I couldn’t figure out what she needed. This recent job thing was the final push.
I’m broke and tired and disappointed with how things are playing out with my career.
With that being said…. I need to seal my words and move forward. Sitting here dwelling about it doesn’t make me feel better.
“We now know that whatever you vibrate, you create and attract to yourself. So, you work on healing yourself in order to create peace around you. You become peace. If there’s conflict living within you, you cannot live in a world of peace. The world mirrors back to you perfectly the condition of your love and of your intent. And if the world you’re living in is not a world that is at peace and at joy and at grace, then you have to find peace, joy, and grace within you. The shaman no longer looks for meaning in life, but brings meaning to every situation. The shaman stops looking for truth and instead brings truth to every encounter.”
– Alberto Villoldo (via cosmofilius)
“if her legs aren’t shaking when you’re done then you’re not done”
– Keep pumpin bro (via thisbeautyneedsabeast)
1. Learn to recognize when you are feeling stressed – This will help you to reduce your stress before it is expressed as destructive anger.
2. Work on developing your empathy – Trying to see things from another’s perspective often helps to dissipate intense…
I am extremely happy with my life right now. Things are not perfect and I’m not precisely where I want to be in my career, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I’m in a good place for who I am right now.
Each day I become more and more skilled at being myself. In terms of defining my personality, but mostly believing that I can make things work for me.
“We are all connected. When you touch one thing, you are touching everything. Whatever we do has an effect on others. Therefore, we must learn to live mindfully to touch the peace inside each of us. Peace in the world starts with peace in oneself. If everyone lives mindfully, everyone will be more healthy, feel more fulfilled in their daily lives and there will be more peace. This collective mindfulness can bring positive change to our families, organizations, communities, nations and future generations.”
– Thich Nhat Hanh (via abiding-in-peace)